This Is Me......

So, I guess I should start off by introducing myself and giving a little back story.My name is Taylor Allen Brown, or TAB according to the PGA machine at Churchill's.I was born in Oceanside, California on a "Hot August Night" in 1985, the 2nd to be exact, at Tri City Hospital.I've never lived more than 15 miles away from where I was born which, in some ways is amazing but, in some ways....amazingly depressing.I was born to a man named Curtis Gene Brown and a woman named Andra Lynn Allen, he a Glazier and she a homemaker.

The following January, my Dad went down to the neighborhood 7/11 and bought me a box of baby cereal and 4 "poker" themed lottery tickets, scratched 1, then brought the other 3 home.According to him, my Mom scratched the winning ticket of 25,000 dollars which set the wheels of change in motion and leads me to where I am now.4 cities and 5 homes later I am the person that you know today.I am the product of a middle-of-puberty divorce which I think may have emotionally crippled me in some ways and strengthened me in others.I think I somewhat lack what psychologists would call "social skills", being in home school 3/4 of my High School years may have something to do with this as well.I'm not retarded or anything though....

Music has always played a big roll in my life, I was raised on everything from Black Sabbath and The Eagles to Garth Brooks and James Taylor.It wasn't until I got my first guitar at 12, that I began to understand its full power though.I was never into the whole "Grunge" era of music at all, as a matter of fact, I hate Nirvana....I think the only thing good to come out that band is Dave Grohl.Living in Encinitas at the time, I was into the punk rock thing, listening to bands like Rancid, Op Ivy, Agnostic Front, NOFX and The Vandals.It wasn't until a couple years later when I bought a Metallica tab book, that I began broadening my true horizons.I started getting into heavier music at the time like Pantera, Fear Factory, Sepultura and all the Roadrunner Records bands of the time.I've always kept a nice mixture of both genres in constant rotation in my life but, in the last few years have gotten back into the more melodic music.In my opinion the new John Mayer album is one the best albums in 10 years, what can I say.The guy is incredible, it comes off completely honest and heartfelt and that is completely lacking in modern pop music.Like life, music travels in cycles for me, if nothing good is coming out I'll revert back to what I know is amazing.Lately, its been bands like The Allman Brothers Band, Bad Company, The Doobie Brothers, Lynyrd Skynyrd, James Brown and David Bowie.I've played in bands, worked for bands, and worked with bands, it's all amazing and always FUN.It will be my life, always....

Another big part of my life is my faith in Jesus Christ.I was born again at about 14, it was one of the best decisions I've ever made.I was not brought up religious at all, but for some reason I was just drawn to it.I've never known the kind of love he shows me everyday, from anyone in this world.I think my only problem with this area of my life right now, is the amount of hypocrisy that seems to follow me from church to church.In the bible itself, it tells us not judge each other, only to love each other, but that seems to be reversed in modern society.I'm not saying that I'm not guilty of this from time to time, but the problem here is that its just grown into far too much of an acceptable thing for "Christians" to judge other "Christians", on their life.The only job we have as "Christians", is to help each other stay accountable to Christ and to spread his name, not tear each other down for what make us different from each other.I recently got in and argument with a friend about our different views on life and faith.After about 3 hours I realized that this was never going to go anywhere, I hate arguing.Everyone is entitled to live their life the way they want, that's free will, my only job as a "Christian" is to offer them advice when they ask and show them everything he's done for me, and can do for them.No one wants anything forced on them, and nor does God want us to force him on anyone.I think, one of the best things about the Bible itself, is that it's always open to interpretation, anyone can get anything they need out of it at anytime.Any sentence can give a different answer at anytime or can mean something different at anytime, it is amazing.

This carries me to another part of my life, women.I've experienced love, seen love, and seen it end very abruptly.I have yet to be in a very long-term relationship, so I may not be an authority on the subject, but, I think I share the same thoughts as other men.I've never been a ladies man by any means, so whenever I find a girl that I want to spend time with, I cherish it.I've been hurt so many time though, that I kind of have a wall that I keep up around myself, as to not get hurt again.After seeing an 18 year marriage end in the matter of a day due to infidelity, I think I'm justified in doing so.I am very open to letting it in though, I will not push it away when I feel it means something, after all, I am a hopeless romantic.A relationship is such a beautiful, complicated, and sometimes, painful thing.To be able to coexist with someone on such a deep level, is a very heavy thing, God must have been thinking of the most difficult test for man when he created woman from his rib.I do love the ladies though......

The most scrutinized and questioned part of my life by others is the fact that I am a Vegan.It is human nature to question what is not considered to be "normal", and being that 95% of the population consumes animal products, it's easy too say that I am in the minority.This is a subject I feel so strongly about but, am not always willing to debate it due to the fact that most people see it as such an extreme lifestyle.I consumed meat for 19 years of my life and one day it was like God sent me a message,via Hiptop, that said "look into this".The more and more I did, the more and more I was disgusted with the way animals are treated before they are sent to their ulitmate demise.I'm not an activist at all and would never tell someone they were wrong for eating ANYTHING, this is just the way I choose to live my life, and for right now, I could not see it any other way.If you want any information go to http://vegan.org/, there is all the information you need.

Sooooooo, that is pretty much me in a nut shell, a pretty big nut shell, maybe a walnut shell.I will post on this with anything I am thinking about, and or feeling.Feel free to always question me, agree with me, and disagree with me.You are who you are, and I am who I am, I would never want it any other way.Life is a beautiful thing, fall in love with it, have fun.

I'll see you in the pit that is LIFE,

Taylor